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Confused and seeking Guidance
Posted by wildcard1974 on 2010-03-27 08:41:46 |
| Some people think im insane some have said i need help. Others just think im wierd. i dont know what i am anymore. When i was very little my great grandfather taught me things i came to know as wicca. At the time i wasnt sure what he was teaching me. When my greatgrandfather passed away he left several things with my grandfather. I remember an old book bound in strange leather, a small handmade dagger and a sword. My mother tried her best to raise me as a christian and destroyed these things as quickly as she could. For many years my christian upbringing clouded my mind and weighed heavy upon my soul. I have never at anytime in my life felt as though i fit in anywhere. Throughout my life at different times i have had strange dreams and felt the paon and anger of many faces unlike anything i can describe. I have often felt a yearning to an area that i can not describe. In my dreams since i was a child i have heard words chanted that i never knew the meaning of. I told one person i knew of these things. That person pointed out some reference materials and the chanted words i often heard in my dreams i now find are a spell of protection. I remember when i was a child my great grandfather told me one time that i would live a hard life full of confusion and frustration, but when the time was right i would a constant longing to be with those of like mind and soul. He told me that i would begin to seek those who felt as i did and i wold not find peace in my life until i did. He said that when i found them they would recognize the mark upon my soul as Amanhiem. here in the past 3 months i have this recuring dream. A woman in white calling the name Amanhiem and saying the time is now. In this dream she tells me to seek the guidance of a preistess of light. She tells me this person will have a longing to find me as well as i her. This woman tells me in this dream that when i do find this priestess i am to be her guardian. And in this dream i feel a strange recognition with the shadows and the moon and the mother. But what does it all mean? Does it make sense to anyone? Im confused and frustrated. there are other things that have happened in my life just the way my great grandfather told me they would back in 1980. "seek the guidance of a priestess of light" ????? Im clueless. But then again if your reading this you probably think ive cracked a few marbles to. |
| Posted by Hala333 on 2010-03-27 13:35:39 |
| You were in Wicca Chat this morning. I am RoseQuartz and you told us about your dream. I think your dream is telling you it is time to seek like-minded people like your grandfather said you would. We'll talk more in Wicca Chat :) |
| Posted by malachi on 2010-03-28 10:01:01 |
| What it means, I cannot tell you but what I can tell you is your ok no marbles cracked. Dreams are hard to understand and most often we seek relevance to randomness. You have fond memories of a wonderful grandfather that loved you very much.Things will be revieled when needed. Sometimes no answer is your answer |
| Posted by Raito9 on 2010-03-29 00:17:08 |
| Honestly, I don't think a person will ever know what dreams are. They are the enigmas of humans. People analyze them with bias. They see int hem what they want to. I have strange dreams too. Mine are filled with monsters and death. Some choose to think my dreams mean I can see creatures, even though I don't. Me, I don't think my dreams mean anything. I use them instead as inspiration for my stories. See in them what you want, and let it lead you. Don't let people tell you what to do though. Ponder their advice, but you must choose what to do in the end. |
| Posted by middleson on 2010-04-03 15:24:15 |
| my best advice to you my friend is to continue to follow heart and try to interperet your dreams as best you know how i also feel you are a very gifted individual and you were very blessed to have a grand father that was willing to teach you these things i am alot like you i feel like im lost and have no idea where i belong if you need to talk to somebody about this my email address is tuttlekevin@hotmail.com good luck on your quest and bless be your frind kevin |
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